Do you sometimes look at the world around you, and wonder if people exist in different realities. I do. The last years I’ve realized that this experience, isn’t me being crazy. It’s true. Because inside themselves, people DO exist in different realities. It all depends on where their awareness is at.

This essay is a map of our different states of awareness, inspired by Enneagram coaches U. Paes and B. Chestnut.

In July 2022 I went to Angsbacka Tantra Festival, looking for community. I didn’t find it. Instead, I realized I was done with neo-tantra for now. I also realized it was probably a bad idea to come alone to such a festival as a woman. To combat the feeling of loneliness, I wrote this essay about my week.

Returning to work after a long time outside of work, Im facing all kinds of challenges - especially in relating harmonically to people around me. In this essay I explore my path back to everyday work - summed up in 5 spiritual cliches Ive tried to live by, but thats turning out to be more complicated to follow than I first thought.

In itself, standing on our heads for ten minutes a day, sitting still in meditation for hours, volunteering in an ashram, doing nose-cleanses and attending cacao ceremonies, haven’t got anything to do with self-realization. That is… unless we USE THE ENERGY these practices generate to take on our REAL work: The inner one.

What does it take to forgive someone? And can we just DECIDE to forgive, or is forgiveness something that needs to arise naturally as a result of us embracing our pain? I had a chat with a friend eager to forgive, and in this essay I share my thoughts. Do you agree? Or is forgiveness something different for you?

Exploring the relationships with My God Within: my inner voice, my spirit, my nature, she who guides my life and carries my life force energy, she who IS me, and yet is much bigger than me.

My God Within expresses herself through me, yet she exists far beyond the limits of my physical presence.

In my experience, it’s really smart to combine several approaches on our quest of self-realization. Cause just as we are complex human creatures, so is our self-realization a complex affair. Based on my own individuation process, I've recognized four aspects I believe all of us have to move through in order to shed our persona, and return to the profundity of just… being US.

My personal account of a love story that didn't end so well for me. It’s also my word of warning in using meditation as a way of emotional bypassing.

This is my story about following a path of silent meditation. The problem was that no matter how dedicated my mediation practice was, outside of retreats I continued playing out the same unconscious and problematic patterns as I had always done. This had me questioning: Are our spiritual disciplines just a way to keep our unconsciousness in check? And is it not the opposite of such a repression – to allow our unconscious patterns to play out and be acknowledged - that will actually serve to awaken us? Inspired by the Enneagram type 1.